I need it!
I want it!
I gotta have it!!
I just need it!!
You telling someone: See you just don't understand!
If these 4 simple sentences come out of your mouth or even cross your mind about something or someone....You may be addicted! Addiction comes in all different forms: physical, emotional, or mental. It could be food, it could be a relationship or it could be the need to be wanted or loved.
We are HUMAN & We all have some form of ADDICTION!
Let me tell my story to the people:
Back in 2016, ya girl was 295 lbs. I was rocking a size 20/3xl in everything. I felt fine, looked cute but I was slowly killing myself. I was eating to soothe all of my problems, finances, relationships, previous hurt, and pain with food. I enjoyed it all Italian, Jamaican, American, Chinese, Japanese, Greek just to name a few. I was getting it in...you hear me!
I finally ended up at my yearly doctor's appointment. It all went down like this:
Him: Hey, doing your last few visits your blood pressure was elevated let me start you on a blood pressure medication.
Me: Say what?? No sir...my blood pressure is up because I have to come in here and I hate coming in here.
Him: We'll start you out on a small dose. You could work on losing some weight that may drop your blood pressure.
My doctor sent my prescription over to the pharmacy and I was out the door.....MAD AS HELL!!! Out of true frustration when I got in my car I cried like a newborn baby. My first thought.... let's lose some weight. People talk as if losing weight is easy. They say just change your eating habits. How do I change when I got a problem with food? Besides having kids changing my eating habits was the hardest thing to do. I needed help!! A few weeks later I was en route for the help I needed. I went to see a bariatric surgeon you know why? Cause I needed help......I was addicted....addicted to food!
Reference 2016 for my love of food.
With my insurance, medical clearance and justification are required to receive the gastric sleeve. I went to the cardiologist, pulmonologist, sleep doctor, and finally the psychiatrist. I had everything needed to justify my surgery. However, that doggone Psychiatrist gave me confirmation of what I already knew....My eating habits had to change or I would be on blood pressure medication forever and I was well on my way to becoming a diabetic too. June 21, 2017, at 7 am I checked myself into the hospital. I was getting gastric sleeve surgery!!
June 2017: Start weight- 295 lbs
September 2021: Current weight 205 lbs
My addiction to food is still there but I no longer partake in soothing all my problems, finances, relationships, previous hurt, and pain with it. I'm facing this shit head-on. Food doesn't control me I control me!
Always remember you are HUMAN!
If your addiction is too much please seek out help!